|
eternalfireboi
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Henry
Birthday: 1/28/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: breakin`, bball, reppin JBC, music, & chilling
Expertise: every single thing! xD
Message: message me
AIM:  eternalfireboy
Member Since:
10/15/2003
|
|
| havent been on here for a while..but hey..lifes been crap...i miss her..i really wnat her back..but the past wont come back. everythings a done fall already....i dont want anything but her..i love her very much still..but iuno bout her..i feel like there is no turning back for us anymore...we both had change..well for me...iuno im confuse on what to do for her..but im stil ltrying to be a better person..buther..she totally turn into someone that i dont even want ...shes soooo different..i mean ppl like ppl for who they are but she aint wo she is...i really miss the ruth before..even the one where we argued..cause now when we argued...its like its differnet oo about her..iuno how to explain..oh well fuck it..i guess its a good thing if we both move on from this relationship between us..i really wanna leave chicago..and probably i will soon..hopefully..cause i cant bare anymore things from her anymore..its not that i dont want to its just that...i feel even til lthe day i leave...she wont be here to tell me not to go..all she will say is probaly..its ur decision or w.e...or just put it all on me..i wish she is more compasionate towards me..but no it will never come true... | | |
| i was really happy that day..even like you said it was lame how you already know thatRuth...by the time you read this email...ill be long gone...i cant face this placee aynmore its a hurtful love place for me...i cant stay. i really cant its too painful...looking at every corner i remember us being there once. this relationship is my life...without it, i dont have a life..i hope you can carry on with your lfie and be happy. i sincerely do wish that. i had many great memories with you but at the same time you dont see that he is such a big burden to me...you say it shouldnt be..but what are you to say when at the same time your just like me. i guesss its a good thing for this to end..i can finally see no life again. with no feelings, being cold hearted, i know i cant ever love again...cause its already been gone the moment we broke up. it stayed behind... May 27, 2005. AAC you see...that was the happiest day of my life..even tho you said it was lame cause you knew wat was coming..but that twas the turing point of my life..it meant everything to me. The summer...i really had such great fun and great memories with you. The times where i go to oaklawn to be with you and waiting for you at your skool, The Taste of Chicago, Lincoln Park Zoo, Shedd Aqarium, Chicago Ridge, the park, my house, family dinners at your yeema, family dinner at Magianos, family dinenr at happy chef, dimsum time at moutain view with your family, Seven Wives with you your sister and i,the long walks from lake shore and all around to the end of navy pier,movies, all those dinners that are cheap and expensive, my cousins house, family bbq, borders, caribou, six floor, six floor balcony, times i slept over, sneaking over, chinatown times with you, church itme with you, chilling with you and your friends, beach time, new year kiss, your far away vacations at Disney, Las Vegas, your birthday, downtown adventures, oaklawn adventures, Jade Garden, Red Lobster, Bennigans, Chillis, Chipotle, The Noodle, Seven Wives, Happy Chef, Happy Cafe, Tea Leaf, Joy Yees, Lao Sze Tuan, pool hall, Gourtmet, the chocolate shop under your condo, White Hens, library, the other bookstore, footlocker, watertower, woodfield,ford city, value city, bridgeport's street fair, chinatown summer fair, Dragons Basketball Tournment, Whitney Young, your balcony on the 23rd floor, davids car, mikes car, bigheads car, vic's car, my dad's restuarant, target, my neighborhood, ping tom park, mcg park, basketball times, driving you around while your sleeping, first kiss right infront of your mom, valentine, christmas, new years, halloween, July 4th, 1st month, 2nd month, 3rd month, 4th month, 5th month, 6th month, 7th month, 8th month, 9th month, 10th month...... for all those memrioes with you..it will all be left behind. its hard but living a life with feelings is fianlly voer with me. Its the end of the line im over it. I got nothing left, nothing to save me, nothing to love me, nothing to hold me, and the last....not being with you. Your the first girl that i ever texted over 300 texts a day, the first girl i fell in love with, the first girl that i brought home to my family and be PROUD, the first girl that brought me home and be proud, the first real girlfriend, the fiest girl that is the greatest in the world, the first girl that texts me "Good Morning babe!", the first girl that taught me love, the first girl that said im the first one that is different, the first guy that is so lucky, the first guy that got a lucky girl, the first guy that got a beautiful girl, the first guy that felt their something, the first guy that actually sees the world, and the first guy that actually felt that YOU ARE their world. Your the greatest girlfriend ever...even if there is even the worst of you..it still made up who you are andthats what I Love about You. but at the end i guess we're just not meant....its the final obstacle taht we cant surpass. I learn ALOT ALOT from you and its not ugnna be put in waste. But Ruth...for the last time...let me say I Love you...and you accepting it into your heart for the last time. well after you read this..im probably gone already...gone to a far far far place. goodbye. | | |
| Happy 8th Month
ha! throughout all these time ...i mean ALL these time im still so in love wid you...day and night, and night to day lol. You always put a smile on my face if days are bad but you put a even bigger smile on me even if it was a GOOD day but oh well. so as you can see...im a more considerate person then you are or else i wouldnt even let you write your post first. I let you go first haha...but yeah..its was a great night with you, even tho it wasnt much but the little things count the most.
I Love You Ruth | | |
| i just dont get im so freakin cute. im like a freakin rabbit. gosh..its impossible to imitate me cuz u just cant get any cuter. god damn..i cant stop lookin at myself..i might as well have rabbit ears and a little cottontail cuz im so damn cute.
why is ruth so cool i just dont kno. shes so cool like a freakin ice block. she cools my hot self. damn. shes so cool. wow..just so amazing looking at her. me cute, her cool. its like double C's. like double C boobs. yes.. she's cool. hands off her guys, she's too cool for you guys too. | | |
| There's a thousand words
That I could say
To make you come home
(Yeah)
Oh, seems so long ago
You walked away
Left me alone
And I remember what
You said to me
You were acting so strange
And maybe I was
Too blind to see it
That you needed a change
Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out
And leave me cold
(Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm)
If I could just find a way
To make it so that
She'll be right here
Right now
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man
And be strong
Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone
You're gone
Baby you're gone
Gone, baby girl,
You're gone
You're gone
You're
I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact
That you're gone
If there's something
That I could do
Won't you please
Let me know
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
Baby I could change
My every day
Baby I don't want to
I'll just hang around
And find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
'Cause I know in my heart
You can say that
You don't want love too
Please say you do
Yeah
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man
And be strong
Drove myself insane
Wishing I could
Touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're
Gone
You're gone
Oh whoa
What will I do
If i can't be with you?
Tell me
where will I turn to
Baby, who will I be?
Now that we are apart...
Am I still in you heart?
Baby why don't you see
that I need you here with me?
Oh Oh Oh
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man
And be strong
Drove myself insane
Wishing I could
Touch your face
But the truth remains
You're hone
Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man
And be strong
Drove myself insane
Wishing I could
Touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone
But the truth remains
You're...
| | |
|
